I was so looking forward to reading this book because I loved Sara Bernard’s other book A Quiet Kind of Thunder. But this one just didn’t work for me. At all.
I was brave
She was reckless
We were trouble
Best friends Caddy and Rosie are inseparable. Their differences have brought them closer, but as she turns sixteen Caddy begins to wish she could be a bit more like Rosie – confident, funny and interesting. Then Suzanne comes into their lives: beautiful, damaged, exciting and mysterious, and things get a whole lot more complicated. As Suzanne’s past is revealed and her present begins to unravel, Caddy begins to see how much fun a little trouble can be. But the course of both friendship and recovery is rougher than either girl realizes, and Caddy is about to learn that downward spirals have a momentum of their own.
The first thing that started to annoy me was Caddy’s (who the hell calls their kid Cadnam btw??) mild obsession with wanting a boyfriend and losing her virginity. She’s sixteen… and her friends all seem to agree on this fact. But this aside, Caddy was a nice character. But that’s pretty much all there is about her: she’s nice. There’s nothing wrong with that persé. But I also didn’t like any of the other characters. They all seemed to have one ‘main thing’, Caddy was the nice one, Suzanne was the messed up new kid, Rosie was the best friend. Rosie was annoying. She was jealous or angry constantly and if Rosie wasn’t jealous of Caddy or angry at her, Caddy was jealous of Rosie. Their friendship was fun, but there were so many times I just didn’t like the way they acted around each other.
“I was sixteen, and I honestly believed I was due a love story.”
Another thing that I started to notice quite soon is how there is barely any plot. The plot can be described in literally one sentence if I wanted. The plot that was actually there was with Suzanne. But we don’t get to see much about what goes on in her head! No, we have to stick to her quite boring (not in a bad way) friend. Suzanne is dealing with the aftermath of domestic abuse, which is a big part of the story (or actually, the only part of the story, because that’s literally all that’s interesting). And we get to see the dynamics between Rosie, Caddy and Suzanne which revolves a lot around Suzanne.
“But people we love come and go, Caddy. That doesn’t mean we loved them any less at the time.”
Throughout the story, Caddy develops as a character but I wouldn’t exactly say it was a good development. She started taking risks, but not really good ones if you ask me. What did annoy me was how this change in character somehow was portrayed as good. She was sneaking out of her house to (illegally) climb on abandoned buildings, she went on a train to someplace far away and didn’t even inform her parents, she smoked drugs with strangers. I don’t know in what world that would be considered good. Anyway, I’m not here to judge the morality of the characters but they were acting a bit immature and reckless.
“Even when you see it coming, there’s no avoiding the inevitable.”
This review wasn’t supposed to be as ranty as it is but once I started I couldn’t stop. I’m sorry, but I couldn’t enjoy this book, and I honestly already can’t remember any reasons why I did like it. Anyway, I’m giving this book 2 stars (with a little pain in my heart) because of the aforementioned reasons. I think they say enough. Maybe I’m too old for this book, or maybe it just really wasn’t good. I don’t know.